I am a very private so writing about myself publicly isn't something that I'm comfortable with.
In the past I've written articles from my point of view as a "mum", a "professional", or a "student" but I've never allowed anyone a glimpse into my truly personal thoughts. For this reason I am not intending to share my identity on this blog, but I feel that it is important for me to share my musings because I've found a lot of peace in accepting myself & that wouldn't have been possible for me without having had the opportunity to study others.
I feel like this is my way of saying thank you & paying it forward. I don't consider my musings particularly profound, but I do understand the easy comfort in agreeing (or disagreeing) with an opinion & I don't believe there there are many online spaces specifically for INTJ women to look for that.
I have never met anyone that really understands me; partly because of how little I disclose about myself, but also because I have always felt different. That was especially the case growing up, but even to this day I haven't found a peer in whom I can honestly say "yepp, your mind works the same way mine does".
For a long time that meant that I was lonely; I've never been unpopular but I often choose to be on my own because I find most social environments very cliquey & in order to "fit in" I had to create a facade which is exhausting. I'm still capable of doing that & I do exercise that skill when I'm in situations that call for it (i.e. work, social events etc.) but what has really allowed me to not feel lonely any more is my acceptance of myself.
More recently that acceptance has developed into curiosity & that lead me to looking at the Myers Briggs Type Indicators. My experiences have made me sceptical to the validity of some practises in the field of psychology but I'm open minded & my curiosity pushed me to take a test. This test to be precise.
I am INTJ & although I still haven't (to my knowledge) met another INTJ woman, I feel happy with the idea that there are others out there that probably do think similarly to me & that's a nice feeling.